Soldier Of Love

"I’ve lost the use of my heart

but I’m still alive

still looking for the life

the endless pool on the other side

I’m at the borderline of my faith,

I’m at the hinterland of my devotion

In the frontline of this battle of mine

I have the will to survive

trying my hardest

doing my best

I am love’s soldier!

i know that love will come

I am lost

but I don’t doubt."

conquer

"In the midst of winter, I found there was within me an invincible summer."

ready to conquer everything that comes with it

last night you said "everything happens for a reason" 

i gotta tell you im not sure what that reason is

nor do i think that im supposed to know

the only thing i am sure of is this:
my friend, my sister my insides,
 i will be there & we will fight this together every step of the way!!

cry part II

My soul was weeping.. It caught up with me..i was trying to be strong for all of them.  But my heart & soul needed to grieve & so... My tears were acting as a safety valve for my heart..because too much pressure was laid on it. I remember when my mom said that tears are "summer showers to the soul."  So I cried & cried until i could no more.

"At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can."

cry

Stay strong, stay strong, stay strong..you have to! I keep telling myself that, but sometimes it's ok to break down and cry. We are human after all, it is a good release. Fears we all have them..but we can overcome them. My tear ducts don't seem to be too proud today..but I am stronger because of it! So I sat there & let the tears do the talking this time!

revelation?!

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up.

family

I went to a wake a few hours ago & for someone who has never been to a funeral or seen a dead person before it can be pretty rough. I've always been very accepting of death as a part of life but seeing someone you loved & cared for just lying there in a casket just makes you think about so many things. Family, friendship, love, traditions & the list goes on & on. Family is so crucial, this woman was so loved..you could feel it in the room..especially when my best friend / line sister spoke. The positive energy was beaming. I have never been this proud of her she spoke so well & she was so strong. It made me cry! Her grandmother was very dear to me as her family is like my own...but to see her rest there so peacefully after all she went through made the pain a little more tolerable. Que descanses en paz mama! Family whether it be the one you were born into or the one you created for yourself [friends, significant other, children] are the most important thing a person has...nothing else can really compare. So count you blessings!

love
-A

PSSHH

I used to want this thing forever you can have it back!